I’m in Bellingham, Washington spending some time with my parents while Nate finishes packing the house and taking care of last minute work stuff. It’s been a great 3 days and my parents and I have had a lot of fun and laughter. Today we spent time with my Aunt & Uncle and my Grandmother and it was wonderful. We had a great time laughing and teasing each other and telling stories of when all the kids (me, my brother and our three cousins) where young. It was a great Washington day filled with only a small amount of rain and unexpected sunshine. Tomorrow I’m heading to Port Townsend and will spend the next 4 days with my brother, sister-in-law, my nephew and my two beautiful nieces. I’m really looking forward to spending every minute soaking up as much of the kids as I possibly can. Zac is 3, Zoey just turned 2 and Ally is only 4 months old. I can’t wait to become a human jungle-gym for a few days. I’ll cherish every giggle, every moment, every tantrum and I’ll steal as many hugs and kisses as I possibly can.
And as much as I’m loving these eight days of soaking up all this wonderful love and joy that my family gives me, I’m feeling… lonely. It’s a strange sort of melancholy sadness. A turn-the-page-this-chapter-in-your-life-is-over kind of ache in my heart. It’s a feeling I definitely wasn’t expecting to feel. I had expectations of a pure, non-employed bliss, the whole world is before me, the future belongs to us, we can conquer it all type of a feeling. This melancholy, lonely business was NOT something that I expected.
I suppose it makes sense though; I quit my job, we’re packing our entire house and placing it in storage for who knows how long, I have to give away my cat, we’re selling Gidget (our mini cooper), we’re leaving all our friends to move to a country that doesn’t speak English and we have no clue where we’re even going to live. I’m thinking my brain and my emotions might be slightly on overload! Absolutely everything is going to change about our lives in about 9 days… Country. Language. House. Money. Friends. Church. Priorities. Everything!
Well, everything except for two things: God and my husband.